I want to see the beach

More than that, I want to feel the beach. A warm breeze, sand between my toes, the cool waves running over my feet..

Spring break is this week, and I have a lot of catch up studying to do. I should actually be studying right now, seeing as I have two tests tomorrow, but I can’t seem to bring myself to do it. I keep closing my eyes and imagining myself on the beach- REALITY CHECK. Ok, my mind is back in Atlanta now. I am seriously thinking about taking a day trip to Savannah, though, some time this week. If only I could find an accomplice.. hmm..

On a more exciting note, I head up to Hiawassee tomorrow after my econ test. Woo! Not only do I get to spend time with Chris (Yey!) and his family (also YEY!) but I get to go horseback riding with his mom and Patrick’s girlfriend Tony. Oh yeah, Patrick and Tony are coming, too. 🙂 This is going to be so interesting. This relationship is so different than anything I’ve ever experienced in my life (probably because God is so much a part of it!)

Yey for beach fantasies, real life experiences, and spring break in less than 24 hours!!

Published in: on March 16, 2006 at 5:16 pm  Comments (2)  

I can’t decide

It bothers me when people lie to me. It really bothers me when people lie to themselves. What’s bothering me right now is that I can’t decide if anyone is lying at all, and if they are, to whom and why. I think I’m probably just overthinking this whole thing, which bothers me even more. In the words of Winnie the Pooh, “Oh botha!” In the end I guess it doesn’t really matter, because the situation doesn’t even concern me.

Don’t mind me- I’m just jumping to conclusions again, and I needed to write it down somewhere. Somehow talking (or in this case, typing) to the air makes my frustrations go away. I just can’t seem to chase away this worry.

I really hope I’m wrong about this whole thing.

I’m going to go read Matthew 6. Have a blessed day 🙂

Published in: on March 9, 2006 at 6:03 pm  Leave a Comment  

Go outside!

It is a BEAUTIFUL day outside! Go and sit in the sun, let the breeze play with your hair. Embrace it. It’s wonderful.

I just found out that I am going to be leading 10th and 11th grade girls at Rick and Rosemary Stone’s house for March Madness this weekend! Woo! I am excited. Now stop reading and go outside 🙂

Published in: on March 6, 2006 at 8:14 pm  Comments (1)  

Oh the weather outside is frightful..

Whoa. Christmas song.

Anyway, I guess the weather isn’t too frightful outside, but it definately isn’t anywhere near as nice as it was yesterday.. but of course I chose to wear a skirt and flip flops today, and it’s definately a little chilly. And drizzly. But that’s OK, because days like this are what make days like yesterday so special. But you just wait- tomorrow I am wearing long sleeves and blue jeans.. therefore, judging by my bad luck, it will most definately be clear skies and 90 degrees, so bust out the towels and bathing suits!

Ok, so maybe not. Speaking of bathing suits, I can’t seem to find the right one. I’ve tried on bikinis (alone, by the way- No one ever gets to see me in a bikini :-P), one pieces, tankinis, on and on and on, and I can’t find anything that fits me properly. Perhaps I’ll go puritan this summer and swim in capris and t-shirts (just kidding). Anyway, nothing too interesting to report today. I look cute 🙂 That’s always exciting, I know.

OH WAIT! I’ve almost got my website up and running with full functionality, so soon I’ll post a link right over there (–>) to the right and you can go and see my online photography portfolio! All God’s people said, WOOHOO!

Published in: on March 2, 2006 at 3:48 pm  Leave a Comment  

It’s a wonderful life

I know it’s late, but I couldn’t go to bed without writing about this one.

We (Chris and I) were walking to the student center to go to a friend’s birthday party this evening (by the way- if you didn’t spend at least 30 minutes outside at some point during the day today, you need to repent. Today was a beautiful day in so many ways) so back to my story, we were walking to the student center, and I asked him what God had been talking to him about. Lo and behold, he thinks God may be calling him to be a missionary in a Spanish speaking country.

Right about now, I want to weep, because I have been so unbelieving. Please understand, I am not trying to run ahead of God, and I do not claim to know what His will is, but He is so wonderful to let me share at least this part of my life with someone like Chris, who is, as I have said before, not perfect, but so.. wonderful.

I praise you, God, because you love to give blessings to your children. I ask that you will help me to not lose focus of You, the one who gives gifts and produces adundance in my life. It is you that I serve, you that I live for, you that I love above all else. You have guided me this far- help me to believe with all that I am in your faithfulness that endures forever. Hold me close to you, and let no sin enter into my life unnoticed. I pray that where sin lies buried in my heart, you would unearth it and send it away. I want nothing to come between us, Lord. Father- Daddy- you are my heart’s greatest desire, and I want to hear you clearly. Speak to me, tender lover of my soul. Whisper your wonderous words to my heart, that I may do your will.

Blessed be your name

Published in: on March 1, 2006 at 5:34 am  Leave a Comment  

Where to from here?

“Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will travel to such and such a city and spend a year there and do business and make a profit.” You don’t even know what tomorrow will bring–what you life will be! For you are a bit of smoke that appears for a little while, then vanishes. Instead, you should say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.” But as it is, you boast in your arrogance. ALl such boasting is evil.”

– James 4:14-16

To quote Voddie Baucham, “If you can’t say ‘Amen’ you better say ‘ouch.'” Ok. Ouch. I was so convinced that I was going to Texas this summer- and I told people as much- but it seems that, due to ‘unforseen circumstances,’ I won’t be able to go.. and that’s Ok. As much as I loved the church and the people that I met, my heart is completely at peace. Whatever God’s will is, He will do it in and through me- Of this fact I have no doubt. I love Him, and I have more excitement in my heart than sadness, because I have no idea what His plans are for me (No, I’m not being facetious. I really am excited!).

Lord Jesus, reveal your glory through whatever means you most desire. Here am I, send me.

Published in: on February 28, 2006 at 12:10 am  Leave a Comment  

Happy Spells and Wedding Bells

I am so overwhelmed with joy and thankfulness right now. I feel as though I am going to bust.

I just got off of the phone with my dad. He calls every once and a while to talk to me about what college life is like, how my classes are going, etc, so it was not the call itself that was so unusual.. It was the purpose of the call. He wanted to tell me how impressed he was with my new “beau” (direct quote- gosh I love my dad). This about knocked me off of my feet, not because I don’t think Chris is worthy of such a compliment, but because it came from my dad. And not only did he say it, but he offered his opinion without it being solicited- both quite unusual acts for my father. So I am gleaming with surprise, happiness, and praise for God and the wonders that He is able to work.

As for the wedding bells, they have nothing to do with my previous thoughts. I just got through looking at the proofs from the last wedding that I shot, and they turned out really good. I am going to have some really nice shots to up in my portfolio. For those of you who don’t know, I am going to be meeting with a photographer from the Atlanta area to discuss the possibility of becoming an apprentice of sorts. I will still be working with Mark Turner (Turner Images), but I will also begin shooting weddings with this other photographer. Hopefully I will be shooting on my own in another year or so. I can’t wait.

Praise God from whom all blessing flow
Praise Him all creatures here below
Praise Him above ye heavenly hosts
Praise Father, Son and Holy Ghost

Published in: on February 27, 2006 at 7:31 pm  Leave a Comment  

Beautiful beyond description

I search for words to describe my Lord, and my attempt seems so feeble and inadequate.

My God, the one who created all things for His glory, is incredible; not because He gives us what we ask for, but because He gifts to us blessings that are above and beyond all that we could ever ask or think. All praise and glory be to God my Father, who rescued me from death, dressed me in robes of righteousness, and, above all else, invites me to a transforming relationship with Him. He offers me truth and sheds light on all things. His Spirit is always at work in me and around me, and He opens my eyes to see the wonderful works that He orchestrates.

Lord, may my heart not wander from you. Nothing else is worthy of this life which you have created. Nothing else is worth my praise and adoration. Help me to remember, Lord, that all good things come from you and can be trusted to you. I entrust my heart to you. I pray that as I walk in your marvelous light, I will glorify you, and that when I enter the dark places, I will remember your faithfulness and cling to you, trusting that you are with me always.

Take these hands and lift them up
For I have not the strength to praise You near enough
For I have nothing, I have nothing without You

Take my voice and pour it out
Let it sing the songs of mercy I have found
For I have nothing, I have nothing without you


Published in: on February 27, 2006 at 2:52 am  Leave a Comment